Best Dream Ever!

Oh. My. Goodness.!!! Last night I had the most amazing dream ever, and it is the most vivid and perfect dream I have ever had.

Ryder went to bed last night at 9 (extremely unusual!). Sam put him in bed, and I was so sleepy I took Reagan to bed with us because she was still not quite asleep. She snuggled up in her spot and went right to sleep in the middle of our bed and I wasn't far behind her.

Then the most amazing dream of my life began. We went to a hospital, which I'm sure was Kosair's, and the nurses handed me the most beautiful baby...an exact replica of Reagan...they handed me Reese. She looked idential to Reagan. I can see every inch of her beautiful face. At first she was sleeping. I held her and kissed her for a long time. Then our family showed up and we took turns holding her. Ryder got to hold her and meet his other sissy for the first time. And Reagan was ecstatic! After a while of visiting, I noticed that Reese was breathing. I asked the nurses "if she's breathing, and her heart is beating, why can't you make her stay?" They told me that it was only for a short time. Reese would be real for a day and then she would have to go again. There was nothing the Doctors could do to keep her here.

Transportation during my dream is the only thing that isn't clear...that and we never had to stop and eat, which made our day longer! :) We took Reese to a church, where there was the most beautiful ceremony about to take place...Sam & I were renewing our vows in a beautiful, romantic setting. The best part was all of our kids were there to be with us.

All of our family made two parallel lines up the aisle, and then Sam & I took Reagan and Reese up front with us. I'm not sure where Ryder was during this...he must have been outside playing in the mud :) LOL! When we got to the front of the church, Reese smiled at us and she and Reagan laughed together.

After the ceremony, we were finally alone with Reese. Our time together was drawing to a close, but we weren't upset. We cherished every moment. I asked someone to bring me matching outfits for the girls so we could take their picture together. Then the most amazing part of the dream happened...Reese looked at me! She had peeked at me earlier, but this time she opened both eyes and she gazed into mine. She smiled all over! It was the happiest moment of my life!

I'm not sure who was with me, but me and someone drove Reese back to the hospital. I told her I loved her and that I would see her again soon. She smiled at me once more, and then she went back to sleep. Whoever was with me carried Reese back into the hospital so she could go back to be with God.

The second that my dream ended, I woke up and reached for Reagan. She was already awake and was rolling toward me at the same time. She looked at me and smiled and she kissed me. We hugged and she snuggled on my chest and we both went back to sleep.

That dream set the pace for my day. I woke up in the best mood and so relieved that I got to see and hold Reese, if only in my dream. Any glimmer of doubt is gone and I know she is perfect and beautiful and looks just like her sister.

I feel like today starts a whole new beginning. Stress is minimal and nothing could get me down today. I have a renewed faith in God and I'm thankful that He is taking care of my angel until I get to hold her again.

Heavenly Father,
Thank you for that perfect dream. I know you lead my mind to it so that I would know Reese is safe in your arms. Please remind me every day that life on Earth is my temporary home and that the little things that often bog me down mean nothing in comparison to your glory. Please watch over my family, and continue to bring Reese into our lives, even if only in our dreams, so that we may remember to keep the faith that we will be with her and you in Heaven someday. I pray that other mothers of lost children will experience similar dreams and feel the peace I have this morning.
In your name I pray,
Amen

I love you Reesie-cup!